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Friday, May 05, 2006

HC nomination period is almost over and we have seriously done quite alot of stuff. The new gorgeous Alpha house board, the sign- up sheets for sports carnival and not to mention spending THREE WHOLE HOURS sorting out the names because don't know which retard forgot to put the CG space on the form... and intros...

Will I get in on monday... well... lets wait and see...

I don't really know why I'm so calm, others seem quite nervous, I'm like kinda in tranquil. Perhaps I'm confident, perhaps I don't really care, perhaps I've learnt to take things as they come. Seriously, i don't know... I'm starting to question myself... what the hell am I thinking?

Recently alot has happened to our family. Its like one crisis after another. First was that cousin I don't really know who died of heart attack, then his brother who almost died in a motorcycle crash. I remember seeing aunt last last new year and remembering the sorrowful look on her face during chinese new year.

Then... i thought... how will I feel if my close kins died too? That happened the next year... to third uncle... some people... you think they'll always be there... and suddenly... they're gone. I can still vividly remember last december. The first time I stepped into a temple to pay respects to the dead. It was more of shock to see his face on the photo, I mean... you see it on TV, you see other people's kin... but i see a relative of yours up there... someone you remember was just by your side a while ago...It was painful... a new experience, but I suppose even though he'll always live in our hearts, we all learnt to let time wash and fade memories until only the deepest ones remain.

I heard even the uncle i always see during chinese new year each year passed away too...

Then, recently, my maternal side aunt was struck with cancer. Seriously, i can't stand my family members. Is it because I'm young, or because of studies? Is that an excuse for keeping things from my and just flying off when things crop up? That last time I almost freaked out when every one flew back to kuching during the midst of my O levels. It was like... Poof! This time, mum suddenly told me on thursday night she was going to Penang on friday. I mean... such a huge thing and you tell me now?

And just a while ago, a called dad. Its seems something big is happening back in kuching. A mad man has been attacking the shop almost everyday. Ah yao gor gor even broke his finger in a fight with him. I mean... he brings like hammers and all sorts of weapons. Apparently he hallucinates himself as the owner of the shop and they were fighting for the ownership or something.

But now that Ah yao gor gor is injured (He's like the strongest and biggest size of them all) and the Malaysian police are effectively INCOMPETENT (Must they always wait till someone's dead to do something?), dad has decided to take it upon his own hands to catch the madman. I mean... he's hurting people, and incuring loads of damages...

But I'm really worried... what if daddy gets injured? I don't want the same thing to happen like third uncle. He thought it was okay... and then he got shot. I don't want that to happen to dad. What if the madman produces a knife and stabs him or something?

GOSH!!!!! Think I'm gonna have nightmares again! >.<

Signed Off @ 6:19 AM