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Saturday, May 27, 2006

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Day 1

Titans and Sports carn officially kicked off today. I originally wanted to down and support soccer finals but in the end i was too busy helping out with SC investiture and titans that i didn't have time.

Kinda sad they lost. Heard it was kinda foul.

Titans really shocked me today, i really witnessed the will power of these athletes that wowed me. I was one of the water stations so me, Hafiz and Anh took some glucose water to somewhere near chai chee sec and to cheer them on.

Quite soon after we arrived, we saw Rabu and Yong Qi racing each other back. They were like super super fast lah! Soon after we saw a few more other houses people followed by Jon, Wilson, Ben and the rest.

Three cheers for Yong Qi who came in second, Jon, Wilson and Ben who were 5th, 6th and 7th, Ying Huan who was the 2nd girl and all alpha titans who completed the 5km run.

Then we had the other stations. First was squat thrust which was most number you could do in three minutes or something like that. Really hard but they did really well. Then there was also the sit- ups. Jon was really upset then cause he did alot but there were loadsa no counts. Special mentions to Hui Ru who did a whooping 98 sit- ups!!!!! That's like really shocking for a girl. I helped her press down her feet and timed her and she just pressed on throughout. I felt as if i was doing the 98 with her and cheered her on.

Next was shuttle run where they had to run to and fro for like 800m. Yenliang who subed Jia Yi, Yong Qi and Ben Lau were super fast, chionged all the way. Wilson ran the whole thing with this stupid hairband thing but was still super fast. And we all ran back with the last runner, i was a super team spirit moment.

Lastly was pull- ups and chin- ups. We heard that delta guys did an average of three or four for pull ups but other than one guy who did one, other mostly did more than ten and a few up to like twenty or something. We all counted for them and went like " Uuuuuupppppp!" The girls rawked too! They did super alot of chin- ups. Especially cheryl, she did like... err... 35 or more. Can't remember. Peiwen was super pissed of cause she did alot already then they said her thumbs were in so it was no counts. Anyway, they were super impressive.

Day 2

Sports carn activities started early in the morning with the 290 run ended and all. Went for Hip hop in the morning. Quite interesting, but i daresay... i SUCKED! Then i quickly ran off to play captains ball as there weren't enough subs.

It was really interesting cause our team was somewhat anyhow throw in and we didn't really know each other. It was me, Kenneth (The kesleen's ex who went after Xiangting), Chaw Meng (Pulled in by Kenneth), Song Xi (Pulled by me) Lynn and Seline (Who were just there at that time.) Surprisingly... we were rather good. Maybe cause Song Xi's really tall, Kenneth's a vball player and Chaw Meng's a bballer. We totally thrashed everyone else throughout round robin until Song Xi pangsehed us to go for badminton finals. Then Aloysius took over and we weren't so good cause he's not tall enough... but still good.

THen we got into semis where jon took over aloysius and we won the other team by a little. But still... WE GOT INTO FINALS!!!!! Haha... our lao pok rojak team! Can you believe it?

Anyway, cabbed down with nat and her friends to badminton finals. Lost like shit. And then bussed back for titans. They did logging today and seriously... it was horrendously cruel. Even for supporters. They had to do log lifts where they lift it over their head left and right, Sit up with logs on their stomachs, lie down and push up the logs, Squat with the log on one shoulder and curl their biceps with the log on it. We did fairly well and we even doubled last years record with our squats. A cool 948!!!!! Beta was shockingly strong today and beat us by a little on overall. I still can't figure out how they did the 700+ situps.

Anyway, everyone's really nervous about the final day... where our fate will be decided.

Day 3

Last day of sports carn. Day was kicked off with a retarded rapping competition where almost everyone except Guoping and Alvin impromptued. Then we went off to play foosball. My team consisting of Aloy, Ben Lau, Yen Liang, me and Anh lost. Our competitor was super strong larh! However, Yulin, Hui Qi, Aloy, Kenneth and Chaw Meng's team went all the way to semis and lost. Then I went for salsa but I was sooooo tired from standing under the sun i just sat it out with Xiangting and we lay down and slept in the hall. Also played badminton Cher and Alvin. Alvin was surprisingly good.

Wanted to go for lunch later but we couldn't go out and canteen had no more food so i settled for a sandwich. So pathetic right? Then, rushed off to sub in soft tennis. Our team was quite pro cause we had Benjamin from squash, and this other guy, Yen Liang was good too (He's like good in everything) and we had SC amelia and Niying from bball. We went into semi's without me even playing. Haha! Then, me and Niying played women doubles in semis and won narrowly, but then i rushed off for capt ball finals (continue from yesterday) and they lost overall.

I almost freaked out when they called for us to gather and all the people weren't there. After a while, Seline and Lynn appeared but Kenneth and Chaw Meng and the Joshua guy who was subing Jon (who was in titans) was nowhere to be found. I called kenneth like five times or something and his friend shu said he probably fainted in the toilet or something before he finally appeared. Whew!

Anyway, we played against Shaik's team with pro peeps like Ash, imran, Khairul and two other girls and we tied with them by the end of the game and had a three minute extention. The guys almost fought cause Khairul and imran were rather rough and Chaw Meng kept dribbling the ball. (Always the problem with basketballers playing capt ball) But anway, by the end of the game, the guys were super pissed off. It was a close fight so I didn't really know who won so I turned and asked kenneth. " Hey... who won?" He replied "What do you think?" in an ultra angry tone i thought we lost. Then i asked Lynn too and she said she thinks we lost too so I was super upset.

Later, I walked past the street soccer court and met Derrick and Weiming. Apparently they won street soccer then i told them we lost capt's ball. But derrick said "But Chaw Meng told us you all won?"

Huh? What the hell? Then I asked him more and he refused to tell me. Stupid Derrick! Anyways... rushed down to support titans. Super busy that day lah! They just finished their 7km run and i heard that Jon fainted. He was super sad when i saw him, felt kinda bad but I went back to help out for their log throw.

They did alot, broke record again! But cause they dropped the log they had same count as gamma.

Last event was log relay where they had to carry the log and run across the field. We were leading at first but they slowed down when wilson fell halfway running. He was really sad and almost all of them started crying... we thought we lost to gamma for sure.

The Alpha spirit was really low before they announced results as if we had lost for sure.

Then prize presentation started. I led the captain's ball team to recieve our prize and got a shock when the presenter passed me a gold cup instead of a silver one. I was like... eh? Didn't we get second? Wahahaha! And we had a whole basket of food too!!!!!

Then, they announced the top ten titans and individual winners and finally top two houses for titans. When they announced that gamma was 2nd, everyone was super shocked. Even the gamma people. We were like... " Oh no! So its either us or Beta."

Then... they announced Alpha and we all screamed for joy, hugged each other and cried. I have never felt so elated, it was like all our hard work really paid off.

Of course... we won sports carnival as well. Its truely an alpha year. We won every single event thing year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALPHA RAWKS!!!!!!

Signed Off @ 7:49 AM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

HC camp

Whoo hoo! Finally back from HC camp.

And i must say... despite the non- stop PT, the scolding from ICs, the mental torture, and much confusion when we should address our seniors formally as ICs and when we can joke about with them...

HC camp rawked!!!!!

Especially ALPHA!!!

I must say the alpha seniors are really the coolest. You can see their really super bonded, much more than the other house comittees. Hopefully we'll soon be like them too.

HC camp- day 1

The camp officially started when we reported at 4pm on friday. Alpha was late as we gathered under LT1 first and were waiting for each other. Then, the seniors started to pump us and check if we brought any extra stuff. Jin jie even scolded me for tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. That... was the start of hell we went through. We held at pumping positions for rather long and when each house took turns to put our stuff in dance studio we continued in pumping positions. Initially, i thought all of us had to hold at the standard pumping position, so i did. In the end, i saw all other girls at girls pumping positions and i changed. Seriously... it was worse! Girls pumping position involved kneeling with palms down on the rough track and it was SOOOOO painful!!!!!

Later, we were given free time to start planning some activities like games and the performence we had to carry out during the camp. We also talked to our seniors. After that we could leave for dance concert with out own friends. Me, Wilson and Jon left the team to go join Caroline, Xinhui Xiangting for dinner since our tickets were with them. May couldn't make it in time. We met Beverlin, one of our alpha seniors on the train. Think she thought i was kinda weird since i was leaving with the two guys... she was like... " Err... so... whats the connection?"

Haha... then I pointed to Wilson and said... " HIs somebody is my good friend." Wahahaha!

Dance concert seriously rawked, especially our alpha senior Yinghuan. I always knew she was a good dancer... but seriously... that nite... she rawked. The whole concert was definitely worth much more than $16 bucks. But i personally felt SA dance was not as good as their were known to be.

After the concert, we reported outside the theatre and started out big walk from KALLANG BACK TO TJC!!!!! Ironically, after we walked about a few minutes, we came across the banner indicating the position of the real big walk which was on sunday. Seriously, it was really VERY VERY VERY FAR! We had one hour to get back which was kinda impossible but still we pushed on and brisk walked or jogged the way. Alpha was assigned to walk through Geylang and that was the weirdest part of the walk. All of us were dressed in black and denim while the seniors were in camp tee so we looked like one whole gang charging to a fight. Then on the way, we walked past the alleys with the huge boob women sitting and waiting and the lecherous uncles staring around. Eeew!

The guys were kinda dissappointed thought that none of them were approached.

Jon and a few other guys were really nice to offer to help us carry our stuff and stopped cars on roads or held branches that blocked the roads. Other girls like Amanda and Anh also constantly offered us water. We wanted to run on the way but Kamun started hyperventilating. I was kinda scared when that happened and thought of what May told me about SC camp and wondered if we were gonna start falling out like that one by one. Luckily, Kamun recovered after a while and continued. We took approximately 1 hour and 20 minutes to walk back. Woohoo! We were second behind Beta. Thanks to all seniors like Yong Qi, Yenliang, Jon Lim, Ben Lau, Adilah and many more who jogged with us and pushed us to go on. And cheers for Natalia who ran back first despite her knee injury.

Seriously, I think Arvin and the whole Beta house com's kinda insane. They made the whole Beta house com run dunno how many rounds around the track after they came back from the walk while the whole Alpha including the seniors just lay down on the track and star gazed. Talk about contrast man! Then we did a really nice reflection session on today's walk. After that, we went to bath where we got to know the whole Beta house com girls. Haha! Toilet bonding. Of course, I only didn't know one girl. After that, we went to sleep. I couldn't sleep the whole night even though i was very tired.

Day 2

The next morning we woke at five plus. Amanda woke us early cause she couldn't sleep whole night. Haha! Anyway, we realised we were super early and could have slept like half an hour more. Then, we started morning PT. THAT WAS REALLY SHIT!!!!!

We assembled on the track and ran half a round to the right D area and did jumping jacks for the names of all Alpha people (eg. Jennifer-J-E-N-N-I-F-E-R-Jennifer) and got pumped for other stupid stuff like captains not standing at the head of the house. Then we ran to the left D area and did 30 pumpings and sit ups. THen we ran back to the right D area to do gamma and beta jumping jacks then we ran to the left D area to do something like a combination of pumpings and starjumps. Then we did for delta and it was over. I almost died there. Seriously, it was very very tough.

Then we had house breakfast. The seniors pretended they didn't want to eat but wanted us to serve them really. So we took break and spread and did for them. After that, we started our Amazing race which was held at Orchard. Initially, it was rather alright but we realised we brought one bottle of water instead of three and we dying because we were running without water. Finally, we came to a seven eleven and bought water. Think we were kinda slow cause of that. We walked all the way from Orchard to Great world city where our Amazing race ended and we went back to school. We did more pumpings after that cause we were slow. We almost died then cause the track was so hot and they kept recounting when someone among the 60 of us didn't do properly. Yanning was so pissed of she almost cried and I could see that some of the guys like Wilson beside me was hardly holding on. It was really so depressing seeing the whole team slowly falling out as they couldn't hold on.

Then, we were given free time to plan a game to be held for other houses on sunday and a performence for that night's barbecue. The game was rather fast as we already decided to do something like Hockey and golf. The players had to be blindfolded and get the ball in. The performence was the really hard part. All of us had different ideas on what to do. And we still had to get food for that night's barbecue. In the end we split up. Most of the guys went to get the food as they were stronger and could carry more while the girls + lihao (games IC) stayed back to decide on the performence and write the games proposal.

Finally, the barbecue started, it was really the one of the funnest parts of the camp. There wasn't alot of food so most of us didn't eat alot, think most people were more interested in the programme.

Martin and Tiffany kicked of the night by emceeing.

Gamma started off with "Battle of Superheroes" where two girls are playing their playstation and summon their superheroes to battle like superman, ultraman, spiderman and of course... THE POWERPUFF GIRLS.

Next was our turn. Haha! Think ours was the best...

Guess what we did?

Reenacting... Romeo and Juliet... modern version 2.

Of course... since our Romeo's not in house com... and our Juliet was stolen by beta... we had to change everything...

Scene one:

Romeo's mum (Nat) and Juliet's mum (Amanda) are complaining to each other that their sons and daughters won't want to take over their stalls.

[Haha! Two of them super hyper and impromptu. They kept practicing and practicing their parts cause they enjoyed it sooooo much.]

Juliet's mum: I tell you are... my Juliet hor... pretty, sexy... got nice butt... got alot of guys going after her one. Your romeo leh?

Romeo's mum: My romeo... of course... MACHO larh!

Juliet's mum: eh... why don't your romeo... and my juliet... you know...

Romeo's mum: Yar... then we can combine stalls...

[Two of them super auntie larh! So farnie]

Juliet's mum: JULIET ARH!!!! JULIET! Where are you!?!?!?

Romeo's mum: ROMEO!! Come here. I want to intro you to someone.

Juliet (Played by... none other than... ME! Sorry... forced into it.) and Romeo (Who else other than Mr. Six pack!) enters.

Juliet: What mummy?

Juliet's mum: Come! Meet romeo. See... he so handsome and suave. And... MACHO!

Romeo's mum: yar romeo. See... this is juliet... Okay... we gotta go...you two go par toh okay...

Mums run off.

Juliet and romeo: Err... Hi!

walks one round around pretending to be shy.

Romeo hits Juliet on the arm.

Romeo: Eh juliet! I got something to tell you!

Juliet: Oww! Pain leh. I also got something to tell you...

Juliet hits Romeo back on his back.

Romeo: Wah! Oww... brokeback!

Yenyang enters.

Yenyang: Wa... i also brokeback.

Two of them gaying while Juliet stared in confusion.

Romeo turns back to juliet.

Romeo: Juliet... i got something to tell you. Actually... i'm called Romeo. THat you know. But i'm also Romeo... a.k.a.... Colin. This is my boyfriend (Pulls yenyang) Kero!

Juliet stares in horror.

Juliet: What? How can you do this to me? But... but... I... I love you...

Cries and run off.

Colin and Kero gays off...

Mums enter.

Romeo's mum: I wonder how their date is going.

Juliet's mum: Yar.... oh wait... look... singapore idol.

Both point to a distance away.

Singapore Laoya Idol commercial.

Lihao is a singapore idol judge. Kamun is a contestant chasing after him singing "doncha!"

Lihao runs up the stairs to get away from Kamun.

Lihao: FInally... no more singing.

Anh and Yanning appears singing "You're beautiful. Super out of tune"

LIhao pushes them away.

Lihao starts singing "accidentally in love" and kills others with his singing.

End of singapore idol commercial. Next commercial...

Wilson and Martin are in the "Toilet" peeing. Rishik enters.

Wilson and Martin are talking when they look over and seeing rishik's _______

Wilson and martin: Wa! So... nice!

Wilson: Bet my girlfriend will love me more if i had that.

Martin: Wah... Singapore cannot find one leh... only in eUROPE... eh where you get one...?

Rishik rolls eyes and walks off.

Martin: Eh... don't go leh...

Martin/Wilson: I also wanna get that pair of... nice shoes.

Mums appear and push them off stage.

Juliet appears.

Juliet: How? My romeo... is GAY! He doesn't love me... I think... I'll just... kill myself.

Takes out knife and slits wrist.

lies on floor.

Romeo enters.

Romeo: Oh Juliet! What happened? Why did you commit suicide? Why so silly... you don't have to do that just because I"m with Kero! And I think... I think... I... I'm straight again. and I'm in love with you...

Romeo takes out bottle.

Romeo: Love is great. I shall die with you. This is poison. Juliet... wait for me...

ROmeo drinks poison and lies on the floor almost dying.

Juliet wakes up..

Juliet: Eh! Romeo? WHy are you here? And what are you doing?

ROmeo: I... I... swallowed poison... I... I... thought you were dead?

Juliet: Huh? I play only larh...

Romeo: wHAT?

Romeo dies. Kero runs in.

Kero: Colin! Colin dear dear... why you die? But never mind... I think I'm straight again. And...

Kero looks at Juliet.

Kero: Since... your available now... wanna date me?

Juliet and kero runs off...

-End-

Haha! Super hilarious rite?

After that we cleaned up and had nite PT. If started off with games like blindfold and finding your partner, then blinfold one and get your partner across to you picking up an item on the way. My partner was Brian from gamma. Haha... we rawked. We were first to finish.

Then we played the stand on a bench and arrange yourself in order of something without talking. Lastly, was the _hands_legs_stomach etc on the groundsheet.

Too bad... the fun part was short and we went on to have night PT in individual houses. We ran around the track as one faster and faster, then we did incline... almost died there. Then we did wheelbarrow which was even worse after incline and with your hands burnt from pumpings. Then we ran a one more round with rishik carrying Martin.

It was hard, but we made it through. THen we bathed and had reflections by having everyone write possitive and negative stuff about each other and seniors reading it out. I think i sorta know all my negative stuff already. POsitive is I'm quite iniative, have loadsa crazy ideas quite vocal. Bad is a mix with my gang only and I'm kinda insensitive, using words that are too harsh.

Then, we went to sleep. I slept a little more that night.

Day 3

Next morning we did a bit of running and pumping for PT then we ran to ECP. It felt long but after a while, I realised it was quite short.

We then had sea PT where we had to run in water, do pumpings in water, sit up, and star jump. Then, PT for the whole camp was officially over.

We had breakfast before playing each other's games.

During delta's frisbee game, it started off quite well but guys had to pass to girls and girls to guys so when Jon had the frisbee, i ran up to catch it he threw before i stopped and it hit me right in my nose. i just froze there and thought my nose will break or bleed or something like Yingxiu's. Thankfully it didn't.

After that, we lost... duh! But our seniors treated us to ice cream and we sang and cheered while we walked back while beta ran... Umm... contrast again.

After that, we cleaned up and camp finally ended. Then whole alpha went for lunch at macs... sponsored by HC. Then we talked and got to know our seniors better. THink Adilah's really cute. Haha. She wanted to keep her curly fries.

So... yeah... HC camp was super fun. Elections are tomorrow. Hope i get Vice non- sports like i want. But then again... Martin's a really strong competitor...

Signed Off @ 10:39 PM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

POSEIDON

Definition: The god of water, earthquake and horses.

My definition: A very very very good movie!

This movie super rawks and i seriously recomend everyone to go watch it.

Anyway... yeah... went to catch the movie yesterday.

We were totally deciding to go K box after our insufficient cheat money session the other time until Xiangting pulled us off to watch Poseidon with her. Not without ulterior motives of course.

But oh well, what else can we do? We're such nice friends eagar to offer some help. God knows they need it.

So yeah, even though it was kinda weird when Xiangting wasn't here yet and me, May and Wilson were hanging around... I think it was okay. We shall sacrifice for the sake of friends' happiness. Joking.

So we got bored and started playing around in the food court.

Xiangting slowly chewing on her food. She was soooooo.... super slow. And she left a bit unfinished for each item.

Wilson trying to pose...

Hmm...

Think we all agree he looks better looking away.

Me and May. Being extremely "bright" today.

May again... wonder who she's messaging?

Then we decided to get Poh Xiangting to practice smiling. Yes... we taught her how to smile. Because she usually smiles... somewhat like a mad woman. Well... results speak for themselves.

Before:

And... After:

See... so much prettier. Haha! All thanks to me... this good shifu!

Since we're on expressions... lets try some more.

喜. Okay... back to the mad woman smile again.

怒. Kinda constipated yeah?

哀. She just can't be sad can she?

乐. Kaez... same as first.

Hahaha! None left to be said.

Yay! Four of us. May kinda cut out though.

Met up with Yingxiu and a few others later cause they had to buy some stuff for investiture.

Ladies gone mad in Spotlight.

Part 1: Poh Xiang Ting broadway style.

Part 2: Attitude Yingxiu!

Part 3: Mad Madame butterflies.-_-'''

Part 4: Hmmm... half lady gone mad?

Part 5: And this time he goes down memory lane back to childhood.

Ｐａｒｔ　６：Take a break... have some gossip. Me and Xiangting sat down in some corner of spotlight and chitchatted until all the others went missing．　Ｔｈｅｎ　ｗｅ　ｍｅｔ　吴老师ａｎｄ　ｈｉｓ　ｆａｍｉｌｙ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｗａｙ．　Ｈｏｗ　ｉｎｔｅｒｅｓｔｉｎｇ．

Ｐａｒｔ　７：Ｔｈｅｒｅ　ｓｈｅ　ｇｏｅｓ．．．　ｔｈｅｒｅ　ｓｈｅ　ｇｏｅｓ　ａｇａｉｎ．．．

Ｈａｈａ！　Ｃｒａｚｙ　ｄａｙ　ｅｈ？

Signed Off @ 8:04 AM

Friday, May 05, 2006

HC nomination period is almost over and we have seriously done quite alot of stuff. The new gorgeous Alpha house board, the sign- up sheets for sports carnival and not to mention spending THREE WHOLE HOURS sorting out the names because don't know which retard forgot to put the CG space on the form... and intros...

Will I get in on monday... well... lets wait and see...

I don't really know why I'm so calm, others seem quite nervous, I'm like kinda in tranquil. Perhaps I'm confident, perhaps I don't really care, perhaps I've learnt to take things as they come. Seriously, i don't know... I'm starting to question myself... what the hell am I thinking?

Recently alot has happened to our family. Its like one crisis after another. First was that cousin I don't really know who died of heart attack, then his brother who almost died in a motorcycle crash. I remember seeing aunt last last new year and remembering the sorrowful look on her face during chinese new year.

Then... i thought... how will I feel if my close kins died too? That happened the next year... to third uncle... some people... you think they'll always be there... and suddenly... they're gone. I can still vividly remember last december. The first time I stepped into a temple to pay respects to the dead. It was more of shock to see his face on the photo, I mean... you see it on TV, you see other people's kin... but i see a relative of yours up there... someone you remember was just by your side a while ago...It was painful... a new experience, but I suppose even though he'll always live in our hearts, we all learnt to let time wash and fade memories until only the deepest ones remain.

I heard even the uncle i always see during chinese new year each year passed away too...

Then, recently, my maternal side aunt was struck with cancer. Seriously, i can't stand my family members. Is it because I'm young, or because of studies? Is that an excuse for keeping things from my and just flying off when things crop up? That last time I almost freaked out when every one flew back to kuching during the midst of my O levels. It was like... Poof! This time, mum suddenly told me on thursday night she was going to Penang on friday. I mean... such a huge thing and you tell me now?

And just a while ago, a called dad. Its seems something big is happening back in kuching. A mad man has been attacking the shop almost everyday. Ah yao gor gor even broke his finger in a fight with him. I mean... he brings like hammers and all sorts of weapons. Apparently he hallucinates himself as the owner of the shop and they were fighting for the ownership or something.

But now that Ah yao gor gor is injured (He's like the strongest and biggest size of them all) and the Malaysian police are effectively INCOMPETENT (Must they always wait till someone's dead to do something?), dad has decided to take it upon his own hands to catch the madman. I mean... he's hurting people, and incuring loads of damages...

But I'm really worried... what if daddy gets injured? I don't want the same thing to happen like third uncle. He thought it was okay... and then he got shot. I don't want that to happen to dad. What if the madman produces a knife and stabs him or something?

GOSH!!!!! Think I'm gonna have nightmares again! >.<

Signed Off @ 6:19 AM