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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I lurve my daddy. And yep! He's finally back. For a few days only though...

I know this seriously sounds odd but seriously... i lurve my daddy. I don't think i've ever said that personally to him or even anything similar, but in all, the few months he's been gone made me realise the impact he made on my life.

Many things happen this week and while many people are quite sad that many are leaving TJ, i think i'm quite okay. Most of my closest friends are staying. Okay except for Miao but that was like decided long long ago.

Basically, i'm like totally pissed off with that stupid idiotic Miss Ho but its a long story and I was a little worried about whether she'll pick on me in term two cause i pissed her off so much...

But Daddy changed my thinking. I love how he always manages to do that... like he totally understands you and yet he convinces you the right thing to do based on his own experiences. Not like its some adultish shit.

But at least now that Daddy's not home like 90% of the time, i think i cherish times he's at home more. At least i won't quarrel so much with him cause i know he's only home for a few days and there isn't enough time for us to patch up cause everytime i fights last for like few months or something. Just like today, 90% of the time his preaches would end in a quarrel but today i just sat there and listened. But hey... it makes sense.

And at least daddy's fairer. I know for sure he's not down right biased like mum is. When he's home i get to make decisions like what the family eats for lunch. Without him is like... ah boy wants macdonalds... we go eat macdonalds.

Today he talked to me about my subject combi and asked if this was really what i wanted to do for the next two years because it really would be hard... i mean my physics is totally shit... so I'll have to work extra hard since i'm crazy and aiming for straight As.

Then he said to me comparing me and Yang. He said Yang was like this Jello thing you know, the thing with know solid substance. He just gets pushed around, stepped on. He has alot of feelings, ideas, but he just refuses to express it and all. I on the other hand totally refuse to accept other's ideas and I'm like so straight foward that i always hurt people around me.

In other words, he can hurt himself so much until he's really depressed with life as long as he makes people around him happy and things run smoothly. Which is why he always seems to be in deep suffering.

For me, its the exact opposite. I hurt everyone around me as long as i'm happy. Which is probably why i offend people really easily. But well... I'm trying to change. Just not sure if its workin.

Signed Off @ 2:46 AM